Last party of the year-My New Year Eve Eve Celebration-
30th November 2009
I had my good time, yet my worst time.This year..
I gained through alot.
I had my first experience.
I did learned alot as well.
Circle of friends is getting bigger and bigger, no doubt.
In and out, here they come and go.
I did in love, and did forgone the best one.
No regret, I really do.
Not forgotten the both sweet one.
Because of you, I knew there's certain situation I must accept.
and yet, forced to let go.
The tears that I'd dropped before, will never I forget.
New year is coming soon, not able to stay in my downtown to pass the moment. I have to back to the top of the hill to celebrate my new year with the irreSTOPable queue and the crowd. Too many things that I've left out since I went there to start my new journey, so called working life. Within friends, within some occasion, within some sort of relationship. I really did realised that I'd missed out alot and yet I really do have an overall changes in myself. Wouldn't miss out, the loves one, I'm far away. Totally far from them. There's good, yet bad. Just depends how the situation goes.
Year end is now right ahead, very very near. People is leaving, soon~ very very soon. That's the moment that I hate the most forever and always. I already have the most worthwhile reason for me to cry for. Nevertheless, the most happening laughter ever that I had. Already know which to put at the first and the last. Which to care, which to ignore. I can truly define them clearly, no? Not so sure, but still I'm glad that I'm always learning. I will consider myself as a f**king weak lady, but I'm trying to be strong always.
Well, its 30th today. I had my New Year Eve Eve celebration with my loves. Its so called, sorta depressing for me because I'm not able to be with them on the real Eve Celebration. Its not that I love party time. But just to maintain the love...... you know? Its hard to explain the feeling. Somehow whenever I'm back to my downtown, no matter how there's still a big gap, a big contradiction in between the relation. Friends.. family.. Arh~ its tiring anyway. And this last holiday of the year is the most upset ever because I have the forever-insolvable-conflict with my mum, again. How I wished I could back to the past. Lalala~ this is totally A-BIG-NONSENSE!
Anyway, I had my last party of the year now. Thanks for the all-the-while Loves. Thanks for the sincere regards. Thanks for the precious time. Thanks for the bitter. Thanks for the so-near-yet-so-far feeling. Thanks for the being-blamed moment. Thanks Thanks and Thanks! Just for anything and to anyone!
Year end last hope for the new year, just hope to be stronger from day to day. Let me live, and don't let me feel apart. I'll love whoever that keep me stay alive. Thanks world, see you guys next year. *muax*
*HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010, LOVE*
Best regards, from Ah Chee
Best regards, from Ah Chee
