Happy, no?

People loves my smile.
They love my smiling-eyes.
She said that I'm so optimistic.
He said I'm such a cheerful girl.
Everyone said that I'm free from problems.
The world said I'm a fcuking happy lady.

ButwhoknowsthatactuallyIfeellikecryingeverydayandnight
andcouldgonesoemowhenI'mallalone
andIhateitsomuchwhenIlaughedlikeamadladyonthestreet
withoutcaringpeopleperceptiontowardsme
andburstingthosetearsofjoylikethere'snotomorrow
yetembarrassedmyselfjusttomakeeveryonehappy
becauseIdunlikeanyonewithsadfaces?

....IfeellikecryingwheneverytimeyousaythatI'msostrong.

This is not what I want.
Please tell me the meaning of Happiness.
Wannabe truly-happy desperately.










I seriously hate depression... *sigh*

The Happening JULY. : )

Me & Tiffany

1st of July - Its the day where I officially enter into a working life. As a Guest Services Assistant (Membership), in short, we called it as GSA. And yeap, the job is inside the casino. Hee~ : )

In my whole life b4 I started working, I've tried to enter the casino with my friends for some times but ends up, failed. But now, I no longer need to pretend mature and try to enter because.. I'VE ALREADY HAVE THE PERMIT NOW! HNG!!

I'm New and I'm Trying

Entering into working life now. Everyone knows that life fulls with ups & downs. Tears are always with us in every moment we gone through, no matter its the-good or the-bad. Tears can really stands a billion of meaning whenever they appeared. We learn from the tears and mistakes. Dont we? LOL.

Things not truly gone to the worst, we have SMC after a few days we worked. SMC is something like a group activity where they held in a certain time and hang out together with your group members.

At "Be A Star Karaoke" on the 9th of July.

The new friend, HuiYing. : )

Well, its 10th then! :D
Something I have long for~ woohoooooooo!

*My Graduation* [11.07.2009]

Check out the happy face.
Damnnnnnn foolish! -____-

I'm one year late, I know. But its not the worst too. I'm so happy that I could able to meet back all my old mates. And to any other visitors who came, Thankyou! Billion of thanks! Really appreciated. At last I truly had my Gayly-Graduation, and yet had fulfilled my mum's wish. Thank god! :D

This kiss is not only for him, but for everyone!

Muah~ Thanks for making my day, people. : )

An awesome picha to end the day - The Sepet Family. ; )

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Back to Genting on the 12th.
After few days working, we had our training then.

Day 1, 16.07.2009 - Grooming class

First of all, the Manager has always been emphasized bout our grooming is very important to us. Therefore, grooming class is then being offered. ShiaYee and Cherry is our Grooming Teacher. : )

With my batch's ladies. : )

Not lefted, the guys.
HAHAHA. They have their grooming part too! XD

End of grooming class, one group picha. :D
Its fun anyway~^^

Night, Harry Porter time.

For your information, we've been so hectic working non stop and have our grooming class from the morning until night. Ends up, we fall asleep inside the cinema while the movie is ROLLING! RM10+ wasted. T___T I've forgotten the actual figure for the ticket but I can tell you that I've never paid that number of money for a movie ticket b4! wtf!

Day 2 onwards, MODULE 1 training.

The Messy class.

Hosted by Mr. Marcus.
Our beloved trainer and yet our beloved father. HAHA!

The day b4 the final day!
Everyone busy preparing for the final presentations.

Last Day, 20.07.2009 - His last minute work. HAHA

The MODULE 1 class has been held from 17.07.2009 until 20.07.2009. Everyday and night we have our presentation, something which I really hate it. People who knows me well knew that I'm fear of this kind of shits. Fcuk! But somehow...

My final project.. Should I sound happy or sad? LOL~

Whenever you saw me putting some sort of words like "final", "the end".. normally it sounds emo to me. Well, I'm weak in this. LOL. I hate every single ending, serious shit. XD

My final individual presentation. Ewww~ nervous like shit. X(

After each of us having individual presentation, we have our final group presentation. Its an acting scenery and our group has the best responce from the audiences! I'll try to get the video soon. :D

After everything ends, PICHA TIME. The most precious time must be captured as a memorial of ours. Let me introduce my batchmates. : )

Vion Neo Chai Wan, a sweet lady she is.

Irene Khoo~

Patricia Low, my new bitch. XD

The guy (consider as a lady too)
Nico Goh De Yi, our 8 por. XD

TRACYYYYY. The most Sorhai Ever! XD
Without you, the class wont be that fun. XD

Anyway, she's from BD Admin Department in Telemarketing.

My acting group, Charlie's angel, the name.
LOL~ lame, no? XD

My oral presentation group.
Pat + Me + Tiff + Tracy

ShiaYee, the grooming class lecturer.

As the picture tells, I've asked him to act as a gay. HAHA. He's cute. For your information, he's the Maxims Assistant Manager. LOL~ A very superior of mine, but never thought.. he can be so kiddy like us. XD

Marcus, our father. : )

He's our department, Membership Services Assistant Manager.
...but gonna transfer to VIP on the next schedule, sigh.

The funniest pic ever.
After taking this picha we could hardly stop laughing. XD XD

GSA(s) rule~ The trainers with their Babies. : )

Night time after the training officially ends, we head to the DREAMZ show as everyone always saw them from the TV advertisement that live in Genting everyday and night. But for your information, the show has already officially end on the 26th of July. Pity, wasted. Overall, the show was awesome, lots of nice and amazing things to see. :D

After the show, we've been pulled to "Be A Star Karaoke" again. GroupB's big bosses are having their SMC party there, coincidencely. -___-

Well, too many things happened that night. Good things, bad things, all included. LOL! Anyway, special thanks to Marcus, the father of ours. Thank you so much for the shoulders. And last but not least, Leax (a Maxims AM), thanks for the words. It can be one of the reason for me to stand firm with this new life.

Please give me more time.
-I'm NEW and I'm TRYING-
THANK YOU!!!

Farewell, no?

For your information, I've gone through the interview in Genting.
And I've been employed by the Casino Marketing as a Guest Services Assistant Member.
In short, everyone calls it as GSA.

We've been asked to report ourselves on the 1st of July and start our work on the following days.
Therefore....


2days b4 we left.

Officially a new life soon.
Officially gonna start working soon.
Officially having a permanent job.
Officially leaving my home sweet home.

Gonna leave Ipoh to Genting...
and it really kills our feeling seriously because we are not ready yet.

Sing K, a must mission to accomplish.

Just the 3 of us, its better than nothing.
No need snatch microphone mar. XD

Me & Her lor. SIEN!

and Her, the one who is leaving to Genting with me.




1day b4 we left.

In Breeze Cafe.

The ladies~ :D

For her belated birthday celebration.

Its a surprise and yet, achieved! :D


Group PICHA! woahhh~ :D


Camwhore time then, we are capturing here syok syok one~


But this fella go and buat kacau, iskkk. =..=

HAHAHA. Those were the days before we left to Genting. Though we knew that we will back to Ipoh on the 11th, for my graduation, but we still gonna leave to Genting with some sort of so call depression feeling.

I've cried for the first few days after my interview successed, but not after that anymore because I knew that life still have to go on and in everyone's life we surely have to gone trough some days like this, dont you agreed with this? : )

Therefore, I'm always learning to be strong; and never tried to stop and rest before. Pray for me and support me with some strength please, I really need them alot.

Hell yeah, I'm leaving now, and going to get a new life! : )

The commitment day.

Its 26th June. I've been to KL (Puchong) with Jyeshui & her friends. Their main purpose is to gather among because its been some time they last reunited. But my main purpose is because the next day, me & Jyeshui will be going to Genting for an interview.

This is somewhere we stopped by for a supper-break. Its the Burger King outlet which located in the middle of the highway. :)

Right after we reach the apartment, its already quite late. Everyone is half dead. Therefore, we proceed out night to dreamland.

27th June, Morning.
We prepared ourselves to Genting.

On the way up the hill.

Thats her, Jyeshui.

The Interview hall
Venue : Resort Lobby
Time : Every Saturday, from 9am-5pm

This is consider the first formal meeting I've ever had. Its frightening anyway, yah~ I'm coward. Forever the same thing, sigh. Many people is all the way queue-ing up and waiting for their turn to be interviewed and I've been chosen by a lovely lady. Alright, its fcuking good. consider a lucky one. Somehow, Jyeshui is a bit unlucky. The fella who interviewed her is a man. A man who is consider with an arrogant-look. Perhaps its a fella with some sort of "high-post".

I have 2rounds of interview. Right after the 2nd round, i've been told to report myself on the 1st of July. Oh my~ I was shocked and wondering why is it so soon. Mixed-feeling, and I don't know how should I feel. :\

After my interview, I still have to wait for Jyeshui. Her session is a bit tough. Her interview was separated into 3rounds. And it took quite some time for each session. I was abit worried it might be only one of us will in at first. But after some time where I waited for.. at last! :)

This is it, the letter of commitment.

The feeling is confusing, its like.. its-seriously-not-as-happy-like-what-I-thought. Perhaps we really want this job alot but never thought we have to report ourselves that soon. Sigh, this is life. Anyway, cut the sad crap.

I met him in the middle of my shopping time. :))

Its about evening then, we back to KL for our dinner and stuff. And they had also planned for a surprise!

The cake. :))

A group photo with the Birthday Boy-Char Siu

After the celebration, they have a durian meal. And I head to meet Kee & Huoi for a drink. Never capture any photo as in mood was not that good honestly. After the drink, I've cried over my phone hardly which is my beloved sister on the other side. The reason of bursting those tears is mainly because I really afraid to start this first journey ever. When I started to think of the life of working.. how tough, how stress and how tiring it could be~ how I wished that I don't need to gone through all these. Sigh. But the fact is, I don't have such blissful life like the rich one.

HOPEFULLY IT COULD BE A GOOD STARTING. *phew*

Its 28th June then.
We went to Pavilion for shopping and then we head back to Ipoh in the evening. Its seriously a short but good experienced journey where I learned alot. And last but not least, thanks Jyeshui's friends for the free ride. You guys are an awesome & good-buddy gang. :)

HIS name will never be forgotten.

Michael Jackson
1958 - 2009

Michael Jackson - You Are Not Alone (Official Music Video)


You will always in everyone's heart, never be forgotten.
May you Rest In Peace.
You are not alone, the biggest pop star in history~