Crucify My Love

Sorry, its a lame post. wtf~

2010-09-09T23:30:00.005+08:00

Hi all, its been a long time i neglected my post. Never forgotten my lovely diary too, if not mistaken I've stopped writing since before my 21st birthday which was last year. Sigh, to the max! I do admit, eversince I've started my job "up there", I've been so lazy hanging over and get my things done. The only thing which in my mind is, I need more time to rest; dun bother me anyway. LOL! By the way, just trying to start this post with a random one but ends up, its fucking lousy. EWW!

Its been over some schedule I never really back to my home sweet home. But not for this month anymore. I'm going home, but just for two days. No plan, not going out at all cause I'm just TOO LAZYYY! Oh my, its bored. but i love -___-

Well, back to the main point again!!! STOP THE LAME-NESS!! [*scream!!*] Just to tell you guys that I'm trying to chase back what has left and to update what had happened during this mean time and what is going on and why am I often in M.I.A status and what with all the while emo-depressing status and and andddd....!!!!!

...and I don't know what else. SIGHhHHHhhhhhhhhhh~ :(

Seems like my life is growing older and older. I started to get lazy with the-FUN, bored with the-ENTERTAINMENT. Getting more and more speechless~ just wished to have a good morning everytime i woke up from my bed, have my breakfast-lunch-dinner like the usual ones, doing common things that what humans will do everyday, then ends up with a nice slumberland when the night comes~

ANYWAYYYY, trying to give myself some goal this month to motivate myself BACK! [*this is just a lame reason, sorry. -___-*] And the goal of this month goes tooooooo~~~~~ *tadaaaaa!* I AM GOING TO DIET AGAINNNN!! FUCK THE BELLY & FATSSSS! And I must make this success! Success! AND SUCCESSSS!!!!!! BuAhaahahahHHAha! >D

POST END!
*once again, I'm sorry for the lame-ness. FUCK!*

Bad Bad Life.

2010-07-15T17:57:00.005+08:00

WishingLifeCouldProhibitHumansFromLove

...because when we are free from Love, we are free from sadness.

I'm back for 4days holiday again. I realised that my temper is getting so serious nowadays. And its all about the anger which created among human beings.

First of all, I have a bad time in my working place. People started transferring out one by one, never forgotten the one who resigned and the loneliness is gaining from time to time. Second, doesnt really good with any colleagues. Mostly because I don't feel like being good with any of them. Hatred is gaining from now and then. Nevertheless, pressure from my job. Who can I share this problem with? Does anyone out there who really can feel the way I am now? Sigh.

Its been a hectic month in this July. I've been given so many tasks to complete which is out of my position. I don't mind if you assigned me on any task, I really never thought of getting ANY REPAY. But not until "she" asked me what have I done which is beyond my job. I'm getting so speechless and wondering a lot what's the reason she has to ask, and seriously.. I dare not to answer because I'm afraid that she will take this as a complain where I AM NOT!

Hopefully all these will be neutralized back some day~
Back to the main point.

My mood is down to the drain nowadays. What's in my mind through out this month is just days being ruined one by one. Until the day when I'm back to my downtown, things still never stopped. I'm trying so hard not to give any respond towards any conflict which happened in between, but still I don't understand why people still trying to incite the whole situation?! Trying to gain my anger? Wants me to swear you? You know I can do anything which is beyond your perception but still I try to control myself and yet I STILL DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY THE HELL YOU STILL TRY TO DO SOMETHING WHICH IRRITATES ME SO FUCKING WELL!! I'm trying so hard to ignore everyone of you, but still I don't know why do you have to bother my sucks life. Just doesn't understand why must LIFE forced me to hate the one that I love the most. And without denying, you guys have seriously caused me hates you for tones. Instead of asking you guys to die, I hope someone could murdered me!!

就是因为是亲人, 所以我才选择逃避..
就是因为是亲人, 你也不用那么过分..

Don't try to test my patience please, I have my limit.

Hi, emo.

2010-06-03T01:33:00.007+08:00

五月天 - 温柔 (还你自由版)

走在风中今天阳光突然好温柔

天的温柔地的温柔像你抱着我

然后发现你的改变孤单的今后

如果冷　该怎么度过

天边风光身边的我都不在你眼中

你的眼中藏着什么我从来都不懂

没有关系你的世界就让你拥有

不打扰　是我的温柔

不知道不明了不想要为什么我的心

明明是想靠近却孤单到黎明

不知道不明了不想要为什么我的心

那爱情的绮丽总是在孤单里

再把我的最好的爱给你

不知不觉不情不愿又到巷子口

我没有哭也没有笑因为这是梦

没有预兆没有理由你真的有说过

如果有就让你自由

不知道不明了不想要为什么我的心

明明是想靠近却孤单到黎明

不知道不明了不想要为什么我的心

那爱情的绮丽总是在孤单里

再把我的最好的爱给你

不知不觉不情不愿又到巷子口

我没有哭也没有笑因为这是梦

没有预兆没有理由你真的有说过

如果有就让你自由

嘿~
我给你自由
我给你自由
我给你自由

我给你自由
我给你全部全部全部全部自由

哦~~~~哦~~~~哦~~~~

这是我的温柔

这是我的温柔

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Thank you damn-song for being such a companion for so long.
You have never failed to make me cry until today.

Holiday kills

2010-05-21T22:37:00.004+08:00

Just back from Langkawi trip. As I have already applied for 2 days annual leave so that I could have more time to rest when I'm back to my home sweet home. Right after the Langkawi trip, I've back up the hill for one night purposely to meet some precious one.

Her name, EeLing.

Purposely back up the hill to have a-hopefully-not-the-last-dinner with her cause she has hand up her resign letter and her last day gonna be on the 22nd. As I will only back up to work on the 23rd, therefore already dated her earlier to meet her before she leaves.

The second precious one, Ah Chyi ♥

Her visit to Genting with her bf. Its been some time since I last met her. There she is, the dearest one ever. =)

After meeting them, I back to downtown for another 3 days holiday. Somehow, abit depressed for this holiday, felt abit wasted my 2 days annual that I'd purposely applied because I've been doing nothing. But matters are all over the way~

I've been told regarding a bad news. I knew that I am cruel to everyone because you thought I have no feeling towards this matter at all and not even a sad expression or a sullen sigh as response. But somehow, you will never knew how much I wish that I could totally ignore and doesn't even mind about it. You don't even knew I hope I could pretend that I never heard of anything or maybe I wish that I'm deaf instead, no? Sigh~ Perhaps when the day that we don't wish it will happened really came, I wont be able to accept the fact. But can you tell me, what else can I do other than pretending that I'm okay??

Anyhow, if there's really any misfortune in the end, I'm sure its a serious-grief.. but still, I am so sorry. *heartache*

170510

2010-05-17T19:44:00.005+08:00

Lol~ Teaser of the day!
Guess where am I~~ :D

Have been busying with my current job lately.
Have no time to update the latest one.
But thank GOD, because I'm still not dead yet, NEVER!!

There's more coming up soon, will be re-updated, HOPEFULLY!^^

To be remember.

2010-03-11T02:31:00.003+08:00

Just for a remembrance.
Without reliazing, things had happened for one year.

Back to one year past, I still remember that morning when I jumped up from my fuckup-slumberland in a sudden and picked up that damn-phone-call, immediately I burst my tears like I had never cried before. My heart is pain and feel like screaming my lungs out but I can't.

AND WHY?
...its because the pain is too deep.

I never had that kind of feeling before. The pain is even worst than anything in this world I can confirmed. And I also can say the feeling that I'm having now is still the same as the moment as I picked up the damn-phone-call.

My heart is ache-ing...
...and its always be.

I miss you so much, peeps...! *tears of love*

心放空了.. 寂寞, 好了~

2010-02-27T05:10:00.004+08:00

Lately, nothing good happened. Just feels like I'm all alone up the hill and by the time comes, I'll be given a chance to come out from the cage and set for free for only 4days. Damn stingy. Well, fine. Its alright. I did realised I already get used to this kind of life. Why? Its because I started to pick up my phone automatically and call someone to send me back to my cage on a particular date. I am not crying anymore on the day before I leave. I am reminding myself everyday and night whether what should I bring back to my cage. I'm no longer counting how many days have I been set for free..

My feeling did mix up all the time. I do admit, I'm self-pressured. Little bit of mentally insane. My reason is because I'm all alone. I felt so lonely for times. Trying to tell someone but its unable to explain, even to the closest one. But when the time is right to tell, nobody is available. Therefore, slowly.. I've learned to accept that I'm far from my circle. Am no longer as the most active one in the circle. Yet never will be the most recent updated one. So this is the time I should be tough. I'm trying hard to get back to what I am last time. But the fact is, time is mean. Nothing can be remained as the same as before. There's no changes on you but that doesn't mean I'm not as well.

Just hope time could leads everyone understand...
Well, I'll wait... Hmmm~

Why am I always the chosen one...

2010-02-24T21:48:00.008+08:00

Ohh little crystal ball~
You did really fall and hurt my heart deeply inside.

Just one simple little incident.. It drops and hits right on my phone screen yesterday. And it happened just right NEXT to my thumb. It never hits my thumb at all, but it hits my screen. If it hits my thumb, I'm sure my thumb will be bleeding. This is because it is a ball that made of glasses.

I don't even feel blessed because it never hurts my thumb at all. Instead, how much I hope that it will dropped right on my thumb and just let it bleed non stop. This is because, the scar on my thumb will gone at least. Rather than it breaks my screen, the scars that left will never fade. In another way, my heart bleeds..

I just don't understand why am I always the chosen one. This isn't the main thing that I gone so emo for sure. There's alot more other particular things that really brought me down. And the fact is, nothing good ever happen to me before since this Lunar Year started.

I'm sad, seriously depressed. My grayish-life has back again. I started to hate again when I heard of the sound of laughter. Its been so long I never into this kind of feeling already. And now you are back into my life again. Somebody told me, "Memories are just a part of my life. It lost and gone is because HE don't want me to bear them in mind and we have to forsee the-future." But the fact is, you don't even know how much I treasured the past rather than the present.

I'm just trying to look for a person who could really understand the way I feel.
But where should I find this person?

...I just feel like dying once again.
I really need a hand.

I am veryyyyyy awesome tired.

Random December, 2009.

2010-01-31T17:11:00.007+08:00

Its been awhile since my last post. Procrastination kills.. Owww~ I've been so lazy since I started my job on top of that hill~ And therefore I started this post with a random one.

I'm passing my birthday in Genting, working in the middle of the night. Just right on time when the clock turns to 12am, I had my break time. Phone started to beeps, messages non stop coming in. Thank you so much my dear friends. I do really have a great time receiving all the wishes and blesses. In one word, I'm happy. :D

Since I've been to Genting, I stop wishing some friends on their birthday. I already no longer sending birthday greetings with my heart by typing a long wishes and send it on time. I admit I've neglected some of you. No reason will be given. But just one word that I wish to say, I'm sorry for my carelessness, my friends. But you guys are always right in my heart. =]

Well well, back to the point. On the 6th of Dec, my big day. Silver and WengYu gonna break with me at 12am. At first never really thought anything will happen but until WengYu brought me a plate of ICE CREAM and said "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" together with Silver, wow~ I was.. touched. =]

And then I asked, Birthday plate should have a candle.. WHERE?!
And then WengYu put a straw on it. -___-

I'm speechless..
and obviously, its more like praying. HAHAHA~
Anyway, I'm Happy~~
Thank you, Love.^^

NEXT!
Lookkk at thisss!

The New Member in our room.. GUESS WHAT!

Jyeshui's New LAPPIEEEE~~~~
Something that could KILLS our BOREDOM!
Its like, OMG! Heaven! :D

Follow on.. see this!

22nd of December, Solstice day~

Every year, my siblings and I will help my mum to prepare for this particular day because its our FAVOURITEEEE! But this year, sigh, not having the chance to celebrate together with my family cause I have to work. Hmmm~ But thank god, we have Beckham (Silver's husband). Its so surprise that I could eat some on that day while I'm working! woohoo^^

Its Christmas then~!
For the first time ever I never countdown for Christmas. I still remember on the 24th, I went back to my room and sleep at around 10pm. Neither any of my friends do believe that I really do this. LOL! Well, reason? Its because I'm not in the mood at all. Nobody with me, I'm not with my friends. I'm alone here.. Sounds sad? LOL! NAHH~ Its actually I'm tired okayy. Hee~ :]

But not to the worst, our Casino Marketing stilled will compliment us with some gifts. Early in the morning when I check in, our AM asked us to pick a number and get our gift. LOL~ not too bad. I get a Christmas cup. Ha!

*Here are the gifts*

And Hsiyu with her Darling Yida came for a visit. Well, they brought me my birthday gifts. Its from her, Ying, Leen, CheeBet Siang & SeaLee. THANK YOU BABES! :D

Inilah dia!

Thank you so much^^
I love you guys!

And this is it, the random month of Dec. =]

Good Bye 2009, will miss you.

2009-12-30T18:52:00.010+08:00

Last party of the year

-My New Year Eve Eve Celebration-

30th November 2009

This year..

I had my good time, yet my worst time.
I gained through alot.
I had my first experience.
I did learned alot as well.

Circle of friends is getting bigger and bigger, no doubt.
In and out, here they come and go.
I did in love, and did forgone the best one.
No regret, I really do.

Not forgotten the both sweet one.
Because of you, I knew there's certain situation I must accept.
and yet, forced to let go.
The tears that I'd dropped before, will never I forget.

New year is coming soon, not able to stay in my downtown to pass the moment. I have to back to the top of the hill to celebrate my new year with the irreSTOPable queue and the crowd. Too many things that I've left out since I went there to start my new journey, so called working life. Within friends, within some occasion, within some sort of relationship. I really did realised that I'd missed out alot and yet I really do have an overall changes in myself. Wouldn't miss out, the loves one, I'm far away. Totally far from them. There's good, yet bad. Just depends how the situation goes.

Year end is now right ahead, very very near. People is leaving, soon~ very very soon. That's the moment that I hate the most forever and always. I already have the most worthwhile reason for me to cry for. Nevertheless, the most happening laughter ever that I had. Already know which to put at the first and the last. Which to care, which to ignore. I can truly define them clearly, no? Not so sure, but still I'm glad that I'm always learning. I will consider myself as a f**king weak lady, but I'm trying to be strong always.

Well, its 30th today. I had my New Year Eve Eve celebration with my loves. Its so called, sorta depressing for me because I'm not able to be with them on the real Eve Celebration. Its not that I love party time. But just to maintain the love...... you know? Its hard to explain the feeling. Somehow whenever I'm back to my downtown, no matter how there's still a big gap, a big contradiction in between the relation. Friends.. family.. Arh~ its tiring anyway. And this last holiday of the year is the most upset ever because I have the forever-insolvable-conflict with my mum, again. How I wished I could back to the past. Lalala~ this is totally A-BIG-NONSENSE!

Anyway, I had my last party of the year now. Thanks for the all-the-while Loves. Thanks for the sincere regards. Thanks for the precious time. Thanks for the bitter. Thanks for the so-near-yet-so-far feeling. Thanks for the being-blamed moment. Thanks Thanks and Thanks! Just for anything and to anyone!

Year end last hope for the new year, just hope to be stronger from day to day. Let me live, and don't let me feel apart. I'll love whoever that keep me stay alive. Thanks world, see you guys next year. *muax*

*HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010, LOVE*
Best regards, from Ah Chee

我好兰闷~

2009-09-09T02:56:00.008+08:00

最近的日子不是过的很好..
他们有的, 我没有~
我想要的, 我却得不到~

不开心了~ 又怎样呢?

我也没办法去改变事实~
讲出来也没有用..
有谁会明白啦~~~~~~

一天比一天觉得自己活的真没意义..
寂寞到~~~ 唉!

哇~! 很久没写些甘的兰话了! 哈哈!! XD

The August.

2009-08-15T03:19:00.003+08:00

Leaving back to Genting after on leave for 4days.
Hopefully everything will be going fine soon after I back.
I wanna work as much OT as I could.
Wish me luck, see you guys next month.

Bye. : )

*MUAH*

How to spell E-M-O.

2009-08-14T15:00:00.005+08:00

On leave, back to my home sweet home.

OMFG. Homesick gila.
The quiet and peaceful home, I'm back ler~
The room is fill with dust..
This proves how long things never been moved and used.
One month and one month~
I have to endure this feeling in every single month.
Hmmm~ okay. For a reason, I will. I really will. *sigh*

.....I really need more time.

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I'm so happy that I met you in my dream that night.
Its been awhile I've never see you guys since the day you left everyone. : )
I'm happy, seriously happy.
Happy that you telling me its just a lie that you pass away without anyone's acknowledge.
Though its just a dream..
but as long as I can see that you doing very well..
Together with your Sweetpie..
Smiling to me~
Its so nice to dream of You & Janice.
Hope to see you guys again~
Take care babes. : )

Happy, no?

2009-07-13T19:48:00.007+08:00

People loves my smile.
They love my smiling-eyes.
She said that I'm so optimistic.
He said I'm such a cheerful girl.
Everyone said that I'm free from problems.
The world said I'm a ~~fcuking~~ happy lady.

ButwhoknowsthatactuallyIfeellikecryingeverydayandnight
andcouldgonesoemowhenI'mallalone
andIhateitsomuchwhenIlaughedlikeamadladyonthestreet
withoutcaringpeopleperceptiontowardsme
andburstingthosetearsofjoylikethere'snotomorrow
yetembarrassedmyselfjusttomakeeveryonehappy
becauseIdunlikeanyonewithsadfaces?

....IfeellikecryingwheneverytimeyousaythatI'msostrong.

This is not what I want.
Please tell me the meaning of Happiness.
Wannabe truly-happy desperately.

I seriously hate depression... *sigh*

The Happening JULY. : )

2009-07-12T20:35:00.017+08:00

Me & Tiffany

1st of July - Its the day where I officially enter into a working life. As a Guest Services Assistant (Membership), in short, we called it as GSA. And yeap, the job is inside the casino. Hee~ : )

In my whole life b4 I started working, I've tried to enter the casino with my friends for some times but ends up, failed. But now, I no longer need to pretend mature and try to enter because.. I'VE ALREADY HAVE THE PERMIT NOW! HNG!!

I'm New and I'm Trying

Entering into working life now. Everyone knows that life fulls with ups & downs. Tears are always with us in every moment we gone through, no matter its the-good or the-bad. Tears can really stands a billion of meaning whenever they appeared. We learn from the tears and mistakes. Dont we? LOL.

Things not truly gone to the worst, we have SMC after a few days we worked. SMC is something like a group activity where they held in a certain time and hang out together with your group members.

At "Be A Star Karaoke" on the 9th of July.

The new friend, HuiYing. : )

Well, its 10th then! :D
Something I have long for~ woohoooooooo!

*My Graduation* [11.07.2009]

Check out the happy face.
Damnnnnnn foolish! -____-

I'm one year late, I know. But its not the worst too. I'm so happy that I could able to meet back all my old mates. And to any other visitors who came, Thankyou! Billion of thanks! Really appreciated. At last I truly had my Gayly-Graduation, and yet had fulfilled my mum's wish. Thank god! :D

This kiss is not only for him, but for everyone!

Muah~ Thanks for making my day, people. : )

An awesome picha to end the day - The Sepet Family. ; )

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Back to Genting on the 12th.
After few days working, we had our training then.

Day 1, 16.07.2009 - Grooming class

First of all, the Manager has always been emphasized bout our grooming is very important to us. Therefore, grooming class is then being offered. ShiaYee and Cherry is our Grooming Teacher. : )

With my batch's ladies. : )

Not lefted, the guys.
HAHAHA. They have their grooming part too! XD

End of grooming class, one group picha. :D
Its fun anyway~^^

Night, Harry Porter time.

For your information, we've been so hectic working non stop and have our grooming class from the morning until night. Ends up, we fall asleep inside the cinema while the movie is ROLLING! RM10+ wasted. T___T I've forgotten the actual figure for the ticket but I can tell you that I've never paid that number of money for a movie ticket b4! wtf!

Day 2 onwards, MODULE 1 training.

The Messy class.

Hosted by Mr. Marcus.
Our beloved trainer and yet our beloved father. HAHA!

The day b4 the final day!
Everyone busy preparing for the final presentations.

Last Day, 20.07.2009 - His last minute work. HAHA

The MODULE 1 class has been held from 17.07.2009 until 20.07.2009. Everyday and night we have our presentation, something which I really hate it. People who knows me well knew that I'm fear of this kind of shits. Fcuk! But somehow...

My final project.. Should I sound happy or sad? LOL~

Whenever you saw me putting some sort of words like "final", "the end".. normally it sounds emo to me. Well, I'm weak in this. LOL. I hate every single ending, serious shit. XD

My final individual presentation. Ewww~ nervous like shit. X(

After each of us having individual presentation, we have our final group presentation. Its an acting scenery and our group has the best responce from the audiences! I'll try to get the video soon. :D

After everything ends, PICHA TIME. The most precious time must be captured as a memorial of ours. Let me introduce my batchmates. : )

Vion Neo Chai Wan, a sweet lady she is.

Irene Khoo~

Patricia Low, my new bitch. XD

The guy (consider as a lady too)
Nico Goh De Yi, our 8 por. XD

TRACYYYYY. The most Sorhai Ever! XD
Without you, the class wont be that fun. XD

Anyway, she's from BD Admin Department in Telemarketing.

My acting group, Charlie's angel, the name.
LOL~ lame, no? XD

My oral presentation group.
Pat + Me + Tiff + Tracy

ShiaYee, the grooming class lecturer.

As the picture tells, I've asked him to act as a gay. HAHA. He's cute. For your information, he's the Maxims Assistant Manager. LOL~ A very superior of mine, but never thought.. he can be so kiddy like us. XD

Marcus, our father. : )

He's our department, Membership Services Assistant Manager.
...but gonna transfer to VIP on the next schedule, sigh.

The funniest pic ever.
After taking this picha we could hardly stop laughing. XD XD

GSA(s) rule~ The trainers with their Babies. : )

Night time after the training officially ends, we head to the DREAMZ show as everyone always saw them from the TV advertisement that live in Genting everyday and night. But for your information, the show has already officially end on the 26th of July. Pity, wasted. Overall, the show was awesome, lots of nice and amazing things to see. :D

After the show, we've been pulled to "Be A Star Karaoke" again. GroupB's big bosses are having their SMC party there, coincidencely. -___-

Well, too many things happened that night. Good things, bad things, all included. LOL! Anyway, special thanks to Marcus, the father of ours. Thank you so much for the shoulders. And last but not least, Leax (a Maxims AM), thanks for the words. It can be one of the reason for me to stand firm with this new life.

Please give me more time.
-I'm NEW and I'm TRYING-
THANK YOU!!!

Farewell, no?

2009-06-30T04:49:00.007+08:00

For your information, I've gone through the interview in Genting.
And I've been employed by the Casino Marketing as a Guest Services Assistant Member.
In short, everyone calls it as GSA.

We've been asked to report ourselves on the 1st of July and start our work on the following days.
Therefore....

2days b4 we left.

Officially a new life soon.
Officially gonna start working soon.
Officially having a permanent job.
Officially leaving my home sweet home.

Gonna leave Ipoh to Genting...
and it really kills our feeling seriously because we are not ready yet.

Sing K, a must mission to accomplish.

Just the 3 of us, its better than nothing.
No need snatch microphone mar. XD

Me & Her lor. SIEN!

and Her, the one who is leaving to Genting with me.

1day b4 we left.

In Breeze Cafe.

The ladies~ :D

For her belated birthday celebration.

Its a surprise and yet, achieved! :D

Group PICHA! woahhh~ :D

Camwhore time then, we are capturing here syok syok one~

But this fella go and buat kacau, iskkk. =..=

HAHAHA. Those were the days before we left to Genting. Though we knew that we will back to Ipoh on the 11th, for my graduation, but we still gonna leave to Genting with some sort of so call depression feeling.

I've cried for the first few days after my interview successed, but not after that anymore because I knew that life still have to go on and in everyone's life we surely have to gone trough some days like this, dont you agreed with this? : )

Therefore, I'm always learning to be strong; and never tried to stop and rest before. Pray for me and support me with some strength please, I really need them alot.

Hell yeah, I'm leaving now, and going to get a new life! : )

The commitment day.

2009-06-29T03:35:00.005+08:00

Its 26th June. I've been to KL (Puchong) with Jyeshui & her friends. Their main purpose is to gather among because its been some time they last reunited. But my main purpose is because the next day, me & Jyeshui will be going to Genting for an interview.

This is somewhere we stopped by for a supper-break. Its the Burger King outlet which located in the middle of the highway. :)

Right after we reach the apartment, its already quite late. Everyone is half dead. Therefore, we proceed out night to dreamland.

27th June, Morning.
We prepared ourselves to Genting.

On the way up the hill.

Thats her, Jyeshui.

The Interview hall
Venue : Resort Lobby
Time : Every Saturday, from 9am-5pm

This is consider the first formal meeting I've ever had. Its frightening anyway, yah~ I'm coward. Forever the same thing, sigh. Many people is all the way queue-ing up and waiting for their turn to be interviewed and I've been chosen by a lovely lady. Alright, its fcuking good. consider a lucky one. Somehow, Jyeshui is a bit unlucky. The fella who interviewed her is a man. A man who is consider with an arrogant-look. Perhaps its a fella with some sort of "high-post".

I have 2rounds of interview. Right after the 2nd round, i've been told to report myself on the 1st of July. Oh my~ I was shocked and wondering why is it so soon. Mixed-feeling, and I don't know how should I feel. :\

After my interview, I still have to wait for Jyeshui. Her session is a bit tough. Her interview was separated into 3rounds. And it took quite some time for each session. I was abit worried it might be only one of us will in at first. But after some time where I waited for.. at last! :)

This is it, the letter of commitment.

The feeling is confusing, its like.. its-seriously-not-as-happy-like-what-I-thought. Perhaps we really want this job alot but never thought we have to report ourselves that soon. Sigh, this is life. Anyway, cut the sad crap.

I met him in the middle of my shopping time. :))

Its about evening then, we back to KL for our dinner and stuff. And they had also planned for a surprise!

The cake. :))

A group photo with the Birthday Boy-Char Siu

After the celebration, they have a durian meal. And I head to meet Kee & Huoi for a drink. Never capture any photo as in mood was not that good honestly. After the drink, I've cried over my phone hardly which is my beloved sister on the other side. The reason of bursting those tears is mainly because I really afraid to start this first journey ever. When I started to think of the life of working.. how tough, how stress and how tiring it could be~ how I wished that I don't need to gone through all these. Sigh. But the fact is, I don't have such blissful life like the rich one.

HOPEFULLY IT COULD BE A GOOD STARTING. *phew*

Its 28th June then.
We went to Pavilion for shopping and then we head back to Ipoh in the evening. Its seriously a short but good experienced journey where I learned alot. And last but not least, thanks Jyeshui's friends for the free ride. You guys are an awesome & good-buddy gang. :)

HIS name will never be forgotten.

2009-06-26T13:02:00.006+08:00

Michael Jackson
1958 - 2009

Michael Jackson - You Are Not Alone (Official Music Video)

You will always in everyone's heart, never be forgotten.
May you Rest In Peace.
You are not alone, the biggest pop star in history~

Dragon tak baik ke?

2009-06-25T04:51:00.006+08:00

A friend caught into an accident yesterday night.
Doesn't feels good at all after hearing it.
I hate this kind of incident happened to the person who I knew.
Anyone, anywhere~
Whoever, whereever~
On me, myself, its ok.
but not people around me please.
Seriously fear of tragic.

Seems like dragon babes' not having a smooth life this year.
I've heard of this from the beginning of the year.
Well, just a reminder here.
Just hoping every Dragon babes do take care. Hmmm~

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Going for an interview on this coming Saturday, 27th June.
Hopefully I could make it.
Don't know will it be a good news or bad news.
Duh~ self debating in these few days.
It leads my mood fluctuates like shit.
And I know I've been worrying about something alot.
But I don't know what ~~the fuck~~ was that.
Hell yeah, I'm thinking too much nowadays perhaps.
They are all RUBBISH and its killing anyway. >.<
I'm out now. *sigh*

Back to Kampar^^

2009-06-24T03:07:00.005+08:00

The onli pic taken, Lynn & I.

23th June, 2009
So Happy.
Overjoyed!
I miss everyone of you, TONES.
I hope I'll be back one day again.
The place is like making me so ~~fcuking~~ alive.
LOL~ serious shit, this is very true you know?
Arghhh~ somehow, laziness sucks to the maxx!
I never take any photo with everyone that I met.
Well, nevermind. I'll keep that for convo then.^^

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Anyway, Mr KamLupMun~
I'm still missing you like how I missed you since the day you left US.
Come meet me in my dream, please.

Officially, barroom.

2009-06-21T03:59:00.005+08:00

People who loves to stuck themselves in Barroom are brainless!
LOL, why? Sorry, no offence okay~ Just my own point of view.
It is because its FULLY-PACKED with HUMANS!
Its just SUFFICIENT to fill in with a number of HUMANS!

Anyway, just an advance night out to fulfill AhYeng's wish because her birthday is coming soon.

Overall? Surely ENJOY lar~ :D

Four ladies. : )

Ah Yeng and I~

Ewww~

Getting so high, LOL~

and last but not least, Me & Her again.

End of the day, night. : )

To everyone!

2009-06-19T17:04:00.003+08:00

Does anyone out there loves mask?

They clean your pores

Enhance whitening

Makes you look younger and beauty

and its compatible to ALL LADIES & GENTLEMEN!

Do look for me if you like to have a try.

Approach me for any inquiries. *wink*

The reason behind. LOL!

2009-06-18T02:17:00.007+08:00

Its been awhile I've been out of idea wat to post in my blog until this fella requested me to post about him. LOL! Therefore, here it goes! XD

Mr. Nicholas Law Yik Yang

The funny part : We met through online from SzeHow (forgotten the reason). We've never meet each other in real before. I've heard of him from my friends earlier before I meet him through the network.

We do shared a number of same interests sometimes? Maybe~ I dont know. HAHA. Fcuktard, is the name I gave him. Why? Because he loves screwing my brain with some sort of brainless quiz and questions. -____-zzz! I do hate him sometimes because he often came in and screwed my brain when I'm not in the mood. >(

Wats unique about him is, he loves taking photos without disclosing his face, just like wat you've just saw in the photo at the top there. Yeah, unique. Its unique, I know he loves this word being used to describe on him. Bagi dia sajalah! XD

Erm~ somemore wat else? I really have no idea already wor Mr Law. I'm gonna end this very soon. Oh yes, he loves asking "why wor you" which I freaking hate it. -___- Anyway, he was my once 12hours BF? LOL! Doubting alot? Haha. Well well, dont ask me for any further info ya, people. XD

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Life is fulls with UPs and DOWNs.

Obstacle leads US to become stronger from day to day.

Joanne Kat Wui Mun

Can you see how pretty is your smile?

Do cheer up babe, we will always be with you.

MUAX

Something that should be On-Air.

2009-06-13T04:37:00.015+08:00

Duh~ nearly having a sleepless night, because I've been requested by my friends to edit some certain number of photos that have been taken during Coreen's wedding that occurred two weeks ago : 3th of June, 2009

The damn steamed-face during the photos-edition.

Edit till I gone so ~~fucking~~ BLUR, because not even one photo is well taken! wtf?! >( *lack of sleep will be damn frustrated one ok?*

Anyway, here are some of the picked-photos. Here they go~

On the way to the wedding dinner~

Thank you Exoticut for the hair~
Thank you Elaine for the make up~
Fully appreciated. :D
*...and last but not least to CCY as well for errrr~ watever. -___-*

First picture attempted. MGS girls reunited.

I personally love this photo very much. : )
And it's also the clearest photo among the others. -___-

Here comes the bride, here comes the groom! :D

Coreen with her beloved husband and her sister, the bridesmaid; standing on her left hand side.
Yeah! They are twin sisters! HAHA.

More photos taken before the dinner ends. : )

Me & Her, attendance proven! :D *ignore the fats okay? -___-*

Last group picha, love this too. : )

NEXT ROUND!

Barbeza~

There she is, Elaine Khor. : ) *ignore the fella who is making a fool behind us. -__-*

Again, us~ Chiayee & I.

A funny picture to make a happening night-out, not bad. I love you guys' expressions alot. Its seriously priceless, babes. HAHAHA! XD

DIET PLAN UPDATES!!

Its day 5.
Mum started to nag like there's no tomorrow.
Because I'm skipping 4 days' meals.
And I've been forced to eat today.
*other reasons are not meant to be disclosed.*
.
.
.
In conclusion, my plan for one week diet officially failed ~~sembilan~~ jor.

TOTALLY FULL WITH SIGH-ness!!! (T___T)
*will re-planned diet again without any human's acknowlegdement! shhh~~*

BANGS BANGS BANGS!!

2009-06-11T01:45:00.013+08:00

I've been so unsatisfied with my hair recently. Getting damn bored with it because its been around 3 months plus I never even get a hair cut at all! Therefore this afternoon once I woke up, I quickly rush to a saloon with my mum and CUT! CUT! CUTTTTTTT!!!

Hehe! Not that I'm gonna cut alot larh. X) Just cutting my fringe only mar~ Nah! Here it is.

MY BANGSSSSSSSS!!!! ...again! * please ignore my FACE, yet the POSE! -___- *

HAHAHA! Why again? Back to two years ago then~

Mostly the same right? Are there any changes compare to the current-me? XD Well well, its sorta kiddy look huh? Hmmm~ =\ But I have no choice. I really beh tahan my fringe jor! So, sorry if this kiddy look is offending you. >.<

MY CURRENT HEADLINE!!!

On diet now.
Its Day 2 today.
Gonna last for a week.
Support me please. TQ!! >.<

One sudden emo.

2009-06-06T03:32:00.006+08:00

Without reason, I've been swamped with moody mode.
Argh~ its killing anyway.
Its like there's something is missing from somewhere.
Or perhaps I'm missing something?
I dont know. Wat a sigh!
And people around me loves putting up a fight nowadays, in every way!
Hard words that caused hard feelings.
Acting soooo f***ing SARCASMISTICALLY!
Wat the heck was this?!
I've been wondering are they brainless or because their too bored?
I hope you know wat you are doing and still being as rational as you could!
I really hope that.
Because I bloody fcuk up hate wat you've just did to me.

Today - NICE DAY! : )

2009-06-03T15:57:00.003+08:00

THE NEW MEMBER IN THE HOUSE! LOL!

Early afternoon, mum came into my room while I'm still in my halfway-dreamland. -__-

Mum : Chee~ wake up! The two service men were here dy.
Chee : Har?? Wat? Who? For?? *half awake and still with a f***ing blur face*
Mum : I've told you dy wat, we gonna have an air-corn in the living room soon mar!
Chee : WAT? You serious?? *rubbing eye and yawning*
Mum : Yes!! They've reached! Quickly go wash your face now and go downstairs to observe them, I'm going out now.
Chee : Harrrr~~ Why me~ Ewww~ *sorta frust and head to the bathroom, reluctantly*
Mum : Stop mumbling okay~ I'll back in 30 minutes.
Chee : Orhhhh~ Hmmph! : (

Well well~ as everyone knows its been so long since the hot weather attacks the earth. LOL! Or should I say thank you to the hot weather? It is because of the weather therefore my mum made up her mind to put an air-corn in the living room. wtf. -___-

NIGHT TIME!!!

Coreen's wedding party, my first very own friend's wedding that I'd attended. It's a wonderful and blissful dinner. Gonna update photos in facebook soon, do have a look at there again ya. :D

29th May, 2009 - Party Night!

2009-05-30T20:14:00.011+08:00

WE get a call from friends and said that they need models for their make up class urgently. Well, the WE for sure is regarding to ME and so does CY. There it goes with some pichas. :)

Day's title, Bridal Make Up!

Time doesn't really enough for the two make up artists who loves to get their things done SLOWLY. Therefore the make ups are only halfway done just before the class ends. -____-" But its still ok, because they've been taught what they gonna learned that day. Its only the eyeliner, blusher, mascara, lipstick and bla bla bla haven't been attached. So, here goes the results!

Yehui, CY's make up artist.

ME and my make up artist, WaiSam.

and then, ME and CY. : )

and last but not least, US. :D

Night, KJ dated ME and CY for a drink in TL Wine Shop. But sigh~ TL full house errrrr! (T.T) And then we proceed to another place, which called Krave. Its actually only 3 of us heading for the night out but without reason, it suddenly pop out one by one from no where and therefore it ended like a happening night out!

The Ladies. :)

The fresh-couple!

Too bad, we never take any group picha though. To see more picture, kindly visit my facebook ba~ :)

And here goes the ~~suck~~ best pic best of the night!

The sick-ghost!

People gets so high, but she gets so sick there. ISH! >(

Illness year. -____-

2009-05-25T02:58:00.021+08:00

So now, I've been missing away from my desktop for nearly one week. To make it short, this is all the while wat had happened. LOL!

16th
Gotten my result, Graduated. Muax baby! :D

17th
Is it because of too high? Dun think so. -___- I got high fever. wtf~

18th
Speechless day, never talk throughout the whole day. *sore throat case*

19th
Sore throat end, here the FLUUUU came. Hell yeah, swine flu its popular nowadays. FTW!

20th
Still sick, on and off and on and off.

21th
High fever back, AGAINNNNN~~~~ Dear god, APA LU MAU??!

22th
Getting better, getting better~ but.. *coughcoughcoughcoughcough, infinity times!* =..=

23th
TADAAA! *standing up high on the sofa, cough~* I've recovered!! XD

So, there goes my one whole week. Makahai~ -____- Oops, sorry. My first vulgar in this blog. *this proves how polite I'm used to be always. [nod head nod head]*

Erm, honestly~ not to say longer, its been about 3 years plus I never get sick, so does never enter into a clinic and never even seek for a doctor. But hell yeah, this year, might be a Dating-Doctor-Year hor? WTF~

This recalls me when I've been "appointed" to the doctor when I got my Eye-Infection at the beginning of the year, luckily its after the Lunar year. -___- Those were the days~

That day I woke up and I was like, wtf?! And there goes my eye swollen like it doesnt even need time to swell to that huge one. *pretty sigh*

Following days, keep swelling swelling and swelling. *criessss* I just couldnt get out of my home. *burst into tears* It blocks my vision, totally!!

Well, there goes the patch on a night out.

Did you actually realised, it seems like a mini-size-pad? -________-!

Theres actually times when I have to put on my shades due to necessary ceremony. Credits to the eye, people do really thought I'm actually a, celebrity? LAUGH OUT LOUD LOUD!! -____- This picture tells everything.

And there goes for the days where I'd get so lazy sticking those mini patch, I dun wanna care no more!

Its unique. HELL YEAH, ITS UNIQUE!!!

And till now, its been after 3 months. This is the only thing left, with a few little small and cute-white-dots on it. OH YAH, I said its CUTE! wtf? wat the heck are you doubting about?!

..........and so, are you gonna fully recover dear sweetie eye? :(
I~ I~ I~~~ I did really miss my little used-to-be-seducing-sepet-eye, the one without double eye-lid ger leh~ :(

The best I've ever had!^^

2009-05-16T23:25:00.003+08:00

Thank you world!

To anyone

Everyone

Anything

&

Everything!

Chong June Chee has officially gets her FREEDOM now!!!!

AT LAST!!! (T^T)

**sangat terharu errr**

Pengukur Tanah

2009-05-14T05:10:00.005+08:00

My Diploma just ended no longer as everyone knows.

Currently jobless~

and being as an useless-asshole at home.

I'm so called a "pengukur tanah" now. LOL! -___-

Its not funny I know.

Therefore, I'm here to reveal what a PENGUKUR TANAH does~

*TaDAaa*

Restaurant City!

From the top of the list, I'm now nearly the last one.

Just because I've been M.I.A due to my final exams. wtf~

NEXT!!!

Buahahaahaha!! Go grab the pistol~

..and kill yourself then. XD

Never ever try to take this game easy.

Though its a brainless game, it does really screwed your brain CUKUP CUKUP!!

Go ahead and try youself!

Karoshi-Suicide-Salaryman

Just give yourself a laughter.

Enjoy~ BUAHAHAHHA! XD

here they come and here they go~

2009-05-13T02:41:00.011+08:00

SEE WHO'S HERE!!!

*I'll let the pictures talk*

DAY 1 : 08.05.2009

Yo~ Yo~

:D :D :D

^^

DAY 2 : 09.05.2009

Whee~

Woahh~ :D

DAY 3 : 10.05.2009

Bye bye loo~ :(

Who are they?

They are NPG!!

3 days~ here they come and here they go!

not too long and not too short

not too fined and not too bored

but its still AWESOME though~ :D

As they left, theres no tears though its sorta like having a hard time while sending them back to KL. But no worries and heartache no more, cause I'm so sure we still have so many chances to meet in the future! I'm no longer being so pessimistic already now~^^

THE SURPRISE OF THE NIGHT!!!

Happy Sweet 21st Birthday SweetHeart!^^

Sorry for the stupid cake ya.

Hopefully you did really enjoyed the night.

May all the best wishes be with you always and all the time, babe~ Muah!

Nostalgia

2009-05-09T16:47:00.007+08:00

If only tears will stop falling because I know.....

you will never back forever~

I miss you, Mr. KamLupMun.

With Love;
cheesinpo
(T-T)

Fcuking Bad Week, Sigh~

2009-05-08T02:20:00.004+08:00

Sigh, sigh and sigh.
I'm having a bad bad week, sigh~
All my plans gone~
GONE!!!!
Everything being ruined~ ALL GONE WRECKED!

Sighhh~
I'm sad.
Damn gila frustrated.
I'm so lost and I dont know wat to do!!!

Why the fuck am I exist in this world?
(T__________T)

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NPG monsters are on their way to Ipoh in 10hours later.
While I'm not in the mood, I hope everything will be going fine until the day they leave.
I really hope they are leaving with joy.

Super Junior feat YunHo & Micky - 이별 넌 쉽니 (Heartquake)

2009-05-06T20:37:00.003+08:00

THE LYRIC

이별 넌 쉽니

ibyeol neon shwibni

.
( I Hate You) (I Miss You)Rap > Shit man, I do feel so sorry, ‘bout to say something what –uh

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너무 뻔해 모두 대충 그러려니 항상 쉽게 우리만의

neomu ppeonhae modu daechung geureogyeoni hangsang shwibge urimanui

사랑을 입술에 담고 오르고 내리니

sarangeun ipseule dapgo oreugo naerina

나란 사람으로 인해 벌써 많은 상처를 받은 너에게..

naran sarameuro inhae beolsseo manheun sacheoreul badeun naege..

그러니 어떻게 이별의 통보를 너에게 빨리 말하라는거니?

geureoni etteohke ibyeolwi tongboreul naege ppali malhalaneun geoni?

읽으려고 했던 책을 몇 페이지 넘기지 못하고

ilkeumryeogo haetdon chaekeum myeoch peo iji neomgi meothaego

이제 막 시작한 사랑은 추억보다 빨리 이별을 만나고 니 생각대로 그 모든 잘못을 탓해도 난 할말이 없어

ije man shijan han sarangeun chu-eokboda ppalli ibyeoreul mannagoni saenggakdaero geumodeun jalmoteun tahaedo nan halmali epseo

기억이 없으면 좋겠다는 말에 더 이상 대꾸도 못하겠어 연예인이 하는 사랑.. 다 그런거지…

gieoki epseumyon jolghettda male da isang daekkudo mothageosseo yonyeini haneun sarang.. da geuryeongeoji

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*내 갈라진 심장 (Girl) 사랑할 땐 내 맘 다 흔들고선 (Girl)

nae gallajin shimjang (Girl) saranghan ddaen nae mam da heundeulgoseon (Girl)

이별 할 땐 그 맘 갈라놓아 널 사랑한 맘 모두 부숴 버리면 너무 아아아아 아파 어떻게

ibyeol han ddaen geu mam dallanoa neol saranghan mam modu bushwo peolimyeon neomu ah ah ah ah apa etteohke

살라는 거니? (Girl) 넌 그렇게 떠나면 끝 인 거니 (Oh~)

sarraneun geoni? (Girl) neon geuryeoge tteonamyeon kkeut in geoni (Oh~)

내게 준 상처 따윈 모르니 울고 있을 날 생각 못하니

naege jun sangche ttawin moreuni ulgo isseul nal saenggak mothani

너무 아아아아 아파 이렇게 혼자가 된 난..이별 넌 쉽니

nomu ah ah ah ah apa ireohke honjaga dwin nan..ibyeol neon shwibni

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( I Hate You) (I Miss You)Rap> 매일 밤 소주로 하루를 달래는 난 더 이상 갈 곳이 없는 마음이 아파 아파

maeil bam sojulo harureul dallaeneun nan deo isang gal geoshi eopneun maumi apa apa

너와 함께한 모든 추억이 이제는 사진 속에 묻어있는 순간 그렇게 가니 가니

neowa hamkkehan modeun chueoki ijeneun sajin seoke mudeo itneun sungan geureohke gani gani

내 맘을 아프게 한 채.. 내 맘이 들리지 않니? 크게 소리쳐 보는데…

nae maemeul apeugeo han chae.. nae mami deulliji anni? keuge sorichyeo poneunde

니가 죽으라 하면 죽고 니가 있어야 사는 난 내 심장까지도 다 줘버렸는데…

niga jukeula hamyeon juko niga isseoya saneun nan nae shimjang kkajido da jwo beoryeotneunde

Now expressions, spaces of our relationshipwhat kind of problems make you so hard and sad and weak

수십배 다른 사람보다 잘해도 그 순간뿐이야 그래봤자 그 감동 며칠 지나면 마음속의 그림뿐이야

soshipbae dareun saramboda jalhaedo geu seunganppuniya geurae bwatja geu kamdong myeochil jinamyeon maeum soke geurimppuniya

생각보다 쉬운일이야 진실한 사랑이 내게서 떠나는걸 나 혼자 바라봤던…

saenggakboda shwiuniliya jinshilhan sarangi naegeseo tteonaneungeol na hanja barabwatdeon…

그 무엇보다도 소중했던 슬픈 영화 같은 이야기…바로 내 이야기…

geu mu-eotbodado sojunghaetdeon seulpeun yeonghwa gateun iyagi…baro nae iyagi

모두 부수고 떠난 너

modu busugo tteonan neo

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*내 갈라진 심장 (Girl) 사랑할 땐 내 맘 다 흔들고선 (Girl)

nae gallajin shimjang (Girl) saranghan ttaen nae mam da heundeulgoseon (Girl)

이별 할 땐 그 맘 갈라놓아 널 사랑한 맘 모두 부숴 버리면 너무 아아아아 아파 어떻게

ibyeol han ttaen geu mam dallanoa neol saranghan mam modu bushwopeolimyeon neomu ah ah ah ah apa etteohke

살라는 거니? (Girl) 넌 그렇게 떠나면 끝 인 거니 (Oh~)

sarraneun geoni? (Girl) neon geuryeoge tteonamyeon kkeut in geoni (Oh~)

내게 준 상처 따윈 모르니 울고 있을 날 생각 못하니

naege jun sangche ttawin moreuni ulgo isseul nal saenggak mothani

너무 아아아아 아파 이렇게 혼자가 된 난..이별 넌 쉽니

nomu ah ah ah ah apa ireohke honjaga dwin nan..ibyeol neon shwibni

너 이렇게 떠날 거면 남김없이 모두 갖고 떠나가

neo ireohke tteonal geomyeon namgimeopshi modu kajgo tteonaga

행복 이었던 추억들도 점점 괴롭힐 그리움도 내 가슴에 남을 사랑도

haengbok ieotdan chueokdeundo jamjam gwirophin geurieumdo nae gaseume nameul sarangdo

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*이별 넌 쉽니 (Girl) 사랑할 땐 내 맘 다 흔들고선 (Girl)

ibyeol neon shwibni (girl) saranghal ttaen nae mam da heundeugoseon (Girl)

이별할 땐 그 맘 갈라놓아 날 사랑한 맘 모두 부숴 버려도 너는 아아아아 아픔 모르니?

ibyeol han ttaen geu mam gallanoa nal saranghan mam modu bushwo beoryeodo naneun ah ah ah ah apa moreuni?

견딜 수 있니 (Girl) 넌 그렇게 떠나면 끝인 거니 (Oh~)

kyeondil su itni (girl) neon geureoke tteonamyeon kkeutin geoni (Oh~)

또 누군갈 아프게 할 거니 울고 있을 날 생각 못하니

tto nogungal apeuge hal geoni ulgo isseul nal saenggak mothani

너무 아아아아 아파 이렇게 혼자가 된 난

nomu ah ah ah ah apa ireohke hanjaga dwen nan

Rap>정신차려 바보야 내 사람이 아니잖아 이제 다시 전처럼 돌아갈 수 없잖아

jeongshincharyeo paboya nae sarami anijana ije dashi jeoncheoreom dolagal su eopjana

너도 알고 있잖아 너 하나만을 너 하나만을 바라본 내 마음을…

nado algo itjana neo hanamaneul neo hanamaneul barabon nae maeumeul

미리 말했어야 했는데 수없이도 반복했는데 “미안해” “사랑해” 지겹도록 입에 담았었는데

miri malhaesseoya haetneunde su eopshido banbok haetneunda “mianhae” “saranghae” jigyeobdorok ibe damasseotneunde

미리 말했어야 했는데 수없이도 반복했는데… 그래… 나란 사람이란 이래…

miri malhaesseoya haetneunde su eopshido banbok haetneunde…geurae…naran saramiran irae…

ByeBye, Ying~

2009-05-02T19:03:00.003+08:00

FACTS are always proven by TIME.

No matter where you are going~

Wat are you doing~

Crying? Depressing? Dejecting?

Enjoying? Relieving? Gaying?

Everytime.. Everywhere..

Time has never stop, its ticking.. ticking all the time.. without an ending.

Every minute that you treasuring~

or every second that you wasting perhaps?

Did you actually realised, TIME will never wait for us?

Hopefully its not the last pic for 3 of us. =)

She's ahYing. =]

My final semester is going to end soon, in a very very real soon. I've never wanna forsee how its gonna end. I know I wouldn't be happy, I'm so sure. HAHA. By the way, Ying has left kampar 3 days ago. She's not the first one who left, but she's the first one who I tend to meet up before she left. :D

Thanks god for having the chance. If not I will never know when will be the next time I'm gonna meet her, since she's from another hometown. HAHA!

Anyway, take care Ying.

Us, in Ipoh will miss you heaps!^^

Thank you for everything sweetie~ Muax. =]

The last party. sigh

2009-04-25T07:14:00.030+08:00

Well, a super duper late post here. AHA! I've been sitting for my exams lately and couldn't make any update in my blog. I've just had my Management Accounting paper yesterday, urgh~ it makes me emo. *sigh* Two more papers to go, and its really testing my patience alot. I wanna go home~ =(

Anyhow, I'm here today to express myself. Something which really turned me off recently. Perhaps its because of my PMS caused me seeing every little things gone sooooo wrong. In one sentence, I damn real hate my life.

March 30th, I've back to kampar because there will be a 3 babes' birthday party on the particular night. It was supposed to be a memorable night, a fun night though... =)

The 3 Birthday Girls~ =)

Flour-War as they demanded -____-

...but who knows if there's somebody who has stupid thoughts of winning in every game? Two guys which are 21 and 24 years old. Old enough to act like a child!

I do once love this pic so much b4, but not now anymore~

My 20th Birthday~ A big surprise, but its already a past tense.

Dec 2008, 3am in Genting. Once our insane day~

Jan 2009, KL. They are my so called brothers to me before~

Jan 2009, Genting. Non stop playing a fool around~

Genting Genting and Genting! -____-

Feb 2009, Cameron Highland. He's once my beloved Ah Girl~

March 2009, K Box Embassy. Our all-time-favourite place~

March 2009, MoMo Steamboat. Our first and also the last time having steamboat together~

March 12th, 2009. Genting again~ no more next time.

March 21th, 2009. Voodoo~ the first and also the last alcohol time.

What are all these memories for? For wat reason all these left for me? I don't understand.. Why is it when there's some certain moment we tried so hard to treasure but it ends up with nothing? Why must everyone inciting situation without reason? And now I truly understand this statement, "the more you love, the more you hate". There's no depression, but only anger. Just because of some small matter, for some certain moment you lose in a game, you brought everything down to the drain. I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY!

Wat?! 24 years old ar you? Wat a shame! An OLD KID ever I met!

You are stupid for being brain washed. It's too late to say sorry, girl~

Since you've tried to start the game, why do you intend to end it in the middle? Its useless when things have become ash. I'm sure you do understand how it feels once the feeling has fade away~ We are human, we do get tired. I have no time for anyone who loves to play this game.. I've become so dead-numb.

Our last party~ all the past memorial will be kept aside, never gonna be revealed.

I DUN WANNA SEE THEM, NO MORE!

The GoodBye-Semester.

2009-04-06T15:29:00.003+08:00

Its final semester now.
I'm currently having 5papers in my hand to sit during the final.
2 weeks to go for my preparation, damn sweat!
I wonder will I survived for my graduation.
Or I still have to wait for another year? *sighsighsigh*
Urghh~ X(
I hate that I'm still under procrastination.
Somebody motivate me PLEASE! wtf.

Well, gonna M.I.A for around a month.
For this one month have to busy for my revisions, exams, and also some ByeBye moment.
Gonna endure those moment apart-from-your-friends which I really hate it.
GoodBye GoodBye and GoodBye.
I can perceived the feeling sure very fcuked one.
Dun let me see anyone packing your stuff and LEAVE. ISKKK! >(

p.s : GoodLuck to all Tarcians and Utarians. :)

...and here they passed away tragically~

2009-04-05T01:25:00.016+08:00

Now, this is the first reason I'm back to be a blogger. =)

As people who knows me well, I'm hunting for happiness always.

I'd totally give up on the guy who I once really love for 2 years.

I've tried to put down things that I thought it was a burden to me.

I've started to take things lightly as in I know, Life is full with Ups and Downs.

and Yes, nobody could predict wat will happened next.

I've learned to take and endure things that gone badly.

I really thought I can really really be a REAL-HAPPY-BITCH dy.

But have never ever thought of "this" will happened on me suddenly.

The first fcuk up tragedy that I really need some time to accept.

Just like a show, a movie, or a dream perhaps?

The first time ever I've been through this thing, which is something to do with DEATH.

Do you know how much I hope this isnt a fact at all?

In a sudden, without any hint, you are forced to accept that your beloved is apart from you.

Not for a certain period, but its forever.

Janice~

Ah Man~

As they'd left, it enhance my understanding towards the word "treasure" and "appreciate".

Treasure every moment being together with the person you love.

Appreciate every person in your life.

Life has no take 2.

And now I truly understand, to hate or being hatred is no longer a big matter to me.

Janice ar~ I'm sorry for all the past because I've never done my part being as a friend.

Ah Man ar~ its useless to explain dy I know. Thank you for everything.. and I'm so sorry.

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Rest In Peace Babes~ 12th of March 2009, its really a tragic day. *sigh*

Here we meet again~ :D

2009-04-04T02:40:00.014+08:00

Hello PEOPLE.
I'm here, back to be a blogger.
HAHA.
I hope this wouldnt irritates anyone. XD
Never hope there's Emo posts more than Happy posts.
I know you guys wish this too. HEEEE~ X)

Anyway, here I'm back!
CHEESINPO is saying HELLO to Blog life again~ YEA MAN!

Crucify My Love

Sorry, its a lame post. wtf~

Bad Bad Life.

Hi, emo.

Holiday kills

170510

To be remember.

心放空了.. 寂寞, 好了~

Why am I always the chosen one...

Random December, 2009.

Good Bye 2009, will miss you.

我好兰闷~

The August.

How to spell E-M-O.

Happy, no?

The Happening JULY. : )

Farewell, no?

The commitment day.

HIS name will never be forgotten.

Dragon tak baik ke?

Back to Kampar^^

Officially, barroom.

To everyone!

The reason behind. LOL!

Something that should be On-Air.

BANGS BANGS BANGS!!

One sudden emo.

Today - NICE DAY! : )

29th May, 2009 - Party Night!

Illness year. -____-

The best I've ever had!^^

Pengukur Tanah

here they come and here they go~

*Nostalgia*

Fcuking Bad Week, Sigh~

Super Junior feat YunHo & Micky - 이별 넌 쉽니 (Heartquake)

ByeBye, Ying~

The last party. *sigh*

The GoodBye-Semester.

...and here they passed away tragically~

Here we meet again~ :D

Nostalgia

The last party. sigh